Contemplation.

As I get closer and closer to the time of my wedding, I can't help but be a little overwhelmed by everything.
Recently, we lost K's grandmother unexpectedly. How overjoyed I am to know that I will see her again, but I would be lying if I said I wasn't saddened beyond belief that she won't be there for the wedding.

It's made me realize how badly I'd like to sob over the fact that my uncle won't be there. My uncle was one of the most special people to walk the face of the planet, in my eyes. He passed when I was a senior in high school; him not being there is going to leave a void.

So is the absence of my paternal grandfather, my Papa. I honestly have few memories of him where he wasn't sick, but I know so many stories of things he would do and say. He was generous and kind to those in need. One of my favorite memories of him was asking for ice cream one day when he came to school, and he bought for the entire class, because he didn't want any kid feeling left out. I wish he would be there.

I've been trying to plan a way to honor these three important people in my life, and I can't come up with anything adequate, which frustrates me. Anyone have any ideas?